Sunday, June 28, 2009

Hubby's keepsake is here!!!

Yesterday I picked up Mike's Father's Day gift, it's a beautiful ID bracelet! The camera wasn't cooperating but I hope you can see it, if you can't, click on it and it should open to a larger pic in a new browser:

I had the front and back engraved, on the front it has a cross with a little saying with their names and birthdate, and on the back their footprints were engraved. Mike loved it. My only wish is that I would have been able to give him Them, instead.

Enjoy, xo Nan

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Garden Progress 6-27-09

Just wanted to share the progress of the girls' garden. If you compare these pictures to my post on 5/31, its some nice growth! I am so excited to see the flowers pop up, some are budding. I have not had much motivation to work on it lately, but I plan to tomorrow. Hope everyone is well and enjoying the weekend. xo

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Friday, June 26, 2009

Getting By...

Been a rough week for some reason (period time?). I am hanging in there though. I read a really great motto from an online friend this week "If you feel like you are at the end of your rope....tie a knot", it was really fitting.

I really want to thank the online community of women for getting me through this week. Some are posting the Men's Forum site on there blogs and websites to help me promote it and get more men to join, and I sooo appreciate it (Rachel, Emma, Lauren, Angie, Cara and more! Giving props!).

Out of the blue, I also received a beautiful picture from Lea, who is doing such good things for us babylost moms. Have a look:

Another woman I met online recently who is a photographer, Angie, has joined Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep as an assistant photographer, which offers free photography to parents in the hospital of their precious angels. She is an inspiration to turn her grief into doing such a special thing for others.

I would have never known about this beautiful community of women. You never really want to be a part of it...but I am glad I am, and that we are all not so alone in our journeys. Even though we have never met in person or have never even talked on the phone, I feel as though we have known each other for years. It's really comforting. Thank you everyone.

Hugs to all. Nan xo

Friday, June 19, 2009

A Beautiful Picture for Father's Day

I can't wait anymore, I have to show what sweet Sarah (from Whispered Support) and her brother emailed me this morning. I have seen this beautiful picture on some of my bereaved friend/mammas sites, but once you see it with your own angels names on it, it makes it even more special (thank you!). I am going to frame it this weekend and give it to hubby on Fathers Day (so hon, if you are reading this - sorry I couldn't wait to share it!). I am also giving him a beautiful keepsake but it is not ready yet (waited too long to get myself to the jewelers - thats another story in itself) so I can only give him a pic of it in his card. I will post that when I finally get it! Here is what I woke up to this morning:

So, for those of us in the US, it is Fathers Day weekend, and I just want to wish all of the Daddy's out there, heavenly and earthly, a very special Fathers Day. Especially my wonderful hubby, I don't know what I would do without him.

Love to all xoxo Nan

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Names in the Sand

This post is about the lovely woman in Australia who wrote our beautiful baby girls' names in the sand. She does this out of the kindness of her heart. Her name is Carly and she has entered an online photo contest which will be explained on the link below. Please take a moment to help her out and vote. Thanks! Love, Nan

Monday, June 15, 2009

Nice people are out there!

Kelly is a sweet woman who jumped at the chance to help promote our Forum for Grieving Dads on her blogsite. Just wanted to say thank you Kelly! You can read the post and her website by clicking on the link below:

Kelly's Korner: Such a Busy Day - I don't even have a picture of Harper on this post

Also, sweet Rachel with her site has a link to our forum as well! Rachel is the woman who has our angels names in her butterfly garden and is always so thoughtful of others and she also jumped on the chance to help!

I am so happy to have these wonderful people in my life :) Please, if you know of any Dad grieving the loss of a child, please send them to

Hugs, Nan

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Find your flower...

Good morning,
It's been a while since I've said "good morning" and actually meant it. Even though things can be so hard and so sad, the good days start to appear little by little. Above is a picture of a neat breed of daylily that my cousin Lori and her family brought us on the day of the balloon release. So I planted it quickly in the girls' garden and within a week, the buds starting blooming and I woke up today to a bright single flower in the garden, how beautiful.
Everything is starting to get a little bigger in the garden and its helping to teach me that patience and time help to grow you stronger, little by little, like a flower. If you sit and try to watch the flower bloom, you will be there for a very long time, you can't force it. Just like you can't force yourself to heal, you need time, you need patience, you need to cry and scream, you need to get it out at your own pace and everyone is different.
Today, I say an extra prayer for all bereaved mammas out there to find their bloomed flower and a little less of a heavy heart.
Love, Nan

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Guess what I found?

I came home today and looked in my mailbox, you know, the usual routines. Amongst all of the junk mail and bills there was a large pink piece of paper with writing on it. It was our message on the babies balloons that got stuck in our neighbors' tree!!! It must have fell somewhere they could see it and they put it in our mailbox. My heart was lifted today.

Just wanted to share :) Nan xo

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Our Balloon Release...and 3 Month Angelversary

What a beautiful day we had yesterday on our baby girls' 3 month angelversary. Thanks to all who participated!
We released 72 balloons to our baby girls at approximately 5:30 PM, while surrounding the babies garden. All was going well, and then the wind shifted and blew alot of them into our neighbors trees! They are still there, and everytime I look out of my kitchen window I can see them there....I just do not know what to do! But some did make it, and all in all it was beautiful. I know our balloons did not make it because we had the biggest card and the biggest bunch with our messages to the babies, and I can see it swinging there. Oh well, we will just have to do it again soon! Click here for more pics, you can view them as a slideshow:
Love, Nan

Friday, June 5, 2009

Balloon Release Tomorrow!!!

Just wanted to share pics of the board I made for our guests to sign tomorrow. If you click on the pictures, you will open a new browser that makes them larger and you can see them better. Eventually, I am thinking of making it a shadow box frame and putting the girls' keepsakes on the bottom (knit caps, blankets, bears, rings, etc.). I will share the pics from the balloon release in another post, maybe Sunday. Enjoy!