Sunday, September 5, 2010

A Year and a Half Angelversary

It seems like everytime I write here, I am surprised at how long it's been, but really I am not surprised, more like shocked. A year and a half hurts just as much as a year, a half year, a month, etc. The pain of losing them has lessened alot in comparison to those raw times, but I can still remember their smells, the weight of them in my arms and the hurt of having to hold my children for the last time. The past few days leading up to this angelversary have been especially hard, don't know why and I can't explain it. I have been trying to find something special to do to honor their memory, but I've come up with not too much :( But things may have been trying to find me (I think and I hope).

I had a butterfly that was flying all around me and Autumn on our front porch that let me take numerous pictures up close.




We also had two Monarch caterpillars eating the milkweed on our front porch, but left yesterday to go morph somewhere nearby :) I am hoping to see them back again soon flying around our porch, or the garden.



Other than that, the girls' garden is in need of some weeding and pruning so maybe I will make the garden spiffy tomorrow and it will make me feel close to them. Maybe thats whats wrong, that I have not been able to work for them and feel close, I'll give it a shot. Maybe I will have some new flowers bloom tomorrow in "3's" and give me some signs :)

Love to all xxxooo Nan