Saturday, July 9, 2011

I forgot

This month was the first month in 2 years, 4 months that I missed acknowledging the "6th" of every month. To a normal person that may seem, well, normal. But to me it just feels like I failed a bit. But I don't feel raw, I don't feel cut, I just feel sad about it, and needed to go to the place that understands it, here. Strangely enough, on that day, I was pulling weeds in the babies' garden and tidying it up with some pruning shears and it just hadn't crossed my mind. So I guess, in my own way, my girls are incorporated in daily life without having to have that date attached to them all the time. Maybe when you get to a certain part of this roller coaster ride it all starts to blend together? Hopefully all in a good way.

I miss them, so much, and am grateful for people in my life that allow me to be who I need to be, and also for people who look for things in "3's" for me :)

Love, Nan xoxoxo

If you want to see garden progress this year, its wonderful, click here!


  1. As your toe twin, I remembered for you :) I missed remembering that day as well a time or two and it saddened me as well, but I try to look at it healing and "know" that we don't need to cling to remembrance on "that day" because we remember them every other day in between.

    You celebrate your girls non stop sweet friend. Don't feel as if you failed them, you didn't! You mother them in the most beautiful, thoughtful and loving ways....ALWAYS.

    Love to you beyond words and thank you for being sweet you.

    ps I've loved all the photos from their garden :)

  2. I am sure you felt bad about this but I think it's a beautiful sign and your angels are part of each day! ((HUGS))

  3. I think of you often Nan... and will always remember your daughters with you...