Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Tuesday Link-Up With Tesha

Hi Everyone,

Welcome to those of you linking up with Tesha’s blog or just finding my blog for the first time.

I am Nan, and I lost my triplet daughters a little over 3 years ago. If you read the link “Our Story” on the right side on my blog, you will read a very early account of my feelings in very raw grief. Time has softened those rough edges, but there are days when I still need to cry an ugly cry, or just cry all day in spurts and stay in bed, and miss my babies terribly. I have learned that this is forever, and the road can be hard to navigate, but I know someday I will be with my precious girls again.

It has been very much a roller coaster ride, but through the strength of meeting other Moms who have gone through losing a child or children, I have persevered. I was able to go through one more attempt at IVF and very luckily conceive my rainbow baby Autumn, who is my world. If you want to learn more about Autumn and my struggle to get her here safe, I do have another blog, you can click here to read.

I appreciate the fact that Tesha linked up to Infertility Awareness week as well, as I like to bring awareness that not everyone can get pregnant on their own. To have any kind of treatment is very expensive and is not a guaranteed pregnancy. I wrote about it on my short post yesterday if you want to read it, but I have gone through three IVF attempts, which the 1st one we did not get pregnant, the 2nd one brought us our triplet girls in Heaven, and the 3rd one brought us our earthly baby Autumn. These processes can be so daunting, but also so worth it. I know I could not have gone through our 3rd attempt without the love, support and encouragement of my fellow loss mommies and daddies, and I very much love this community of beautiful men and women.

One more point I wanted to make. I only met Tesha about a week ago, and already I feel an instant connection with her. We met through Kelly’s Korner blog link up, so I firmly believe that these link ups work and bring many of us together to help and support eachother. Please visit Tesha’s site if you have not already done so, and send her love and support. She lost her precious Jonathan just 3 short months ago today. Oddly enough, 3 months after I lost my girls, is when I “met” Kelly from Kelly’s Korner, who kindly helped me promote our Forum for Grieving Dads. This morning, I looked back at my journey at 3 month posts from June 2009 and saw so much of myself in Tesha and where she is now. Everyone’s road is different, but we are all in this together. Tesha, I hope the day is gentle on you and I’m thinking of Jonathan with you today on his 3 month angelversary, big hugs.

May you all have a good day, and feel lifted with support and close to your children in Heaven today and always.

Much love, Nan xoxoxo


  1. I am visting from Tesha's link up!
    I am sorry you walk this path (((hugs))).
    I am a baby loss momma to twins and another baby.

  2. Nan you are so very sweet, Thank you for the kind words and encouragement! I am so blessed we have become friends :)

  3. Hi from Teshas link up. Thank you for the hope you bring.

  4. Thank you for sharing your story and I'm so sorry for the difficult road you've walked, not only facing infertility but losing your precious triplets. {{{hugs}}}

    Visiting from Tesha's linkup.

  5. Thanks for your comment, Nan...I am going to write down your playlist at the bottom. It is perfect. I often take my anger/sadness out for a run...where I can be alone and look up to Heaven. These will be great to add to my ipod! I'm so sorry we are in this club together, but I appreciate the friendship! Hopefully I can seek your advice when we are lucky enough to head towards the "rainbow" club!

  6. I am visiting from Tesha's link up :)
    Thank you for sharing your babies with us in blogland.It's nice to read how dad's feel, my husband tried to be strong in the beginning and I would get angry at him because I thought he didn't care like I did,but now almost four years after her home going he tells me it was one of the hardest things he has ever faced.Thank you for shaing (((hugs)))