Tuesday, February 23, 2010

A few thank yous, and a special introduction

I am so grateful for finding such a wonderful and caring community of ladies with huge hearts. Whether it’s a simple “I’m thinking of you”, “hugs”, or sharing your experiences, I find it all so helpful and sweet. My last post about my girls’ first birthday has been weighing on my mind, and your suggestions and experiences were so sweet, so I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your comments. On writing our birth story, it helped to know that some have also been just like me, and that it was also helpful to know that others wrote it to help honor their angels by remembering the details. I am still torn on what to do, but I loved that most of you wrote, “do what you are comfortable with, and share whatever you want to share”, because yes, this road is different for everyone. I also wanted to note that I think that anyone sharing pictures of their angels is great, and that you can look at them any time you want is beautiful. I almost wish I could share, but it’s just what me and hubby decided to keep “for us” only, from the beginning of this difficult journey.

I wanted to thank Jennifer from The Blue Sparrow and Tina from Living Without Sophia and Ellie for their sweet remembrances of my babies on Valentines. They are so adorable! Hugs to both of you xxxxxxxx

From Tina

From Jennifer

My best friend of almost 35 years sent me this gorgeous pendant necklace with matching earrings, just thinking of me…she is the best and so so sweet. Thank you so much Aimee, I love it so much and know you are here for me whenever I need you!!! Someday I will have to scan a picture of us when we were silly little girls and post it! Here is a pic of the pendant:

I also recently received a beautiful ceramic cross from Nichole at Our Journey for Another Blessing http://kovalbabyjourney.blogspot.com/ (Please visit her, she is great!). Nichole told me she was in a store and saw this gorgeous cross and thought of me and my babies, and sent it pronto!!! I cried happy tears, and was so touched that my girls are in the hearts of many people. Thank you Nichole, it is up on the wall and I am looking at it as I type! I will cherish it forever xxx

Mike and I went to L.owes and I wanted to see if any flowers were around cause I needed a pick me up…and here is what we came home with:

It’s hard not to purchase these things, its money I would have spent (not near the amount) on my babies, had they been on this earth with us. I know it won’t bring them back, but I feel good surrounding myself with reminders of them, so I continue to do it and it makes me smile. Do what ya gotta do!!!




Ok, I am nervous typing this. If you notice the picture of the cross above from Nichole, it has four butterflies. What is the fourth butterfly for? Well you may have guessed or might already know, that we are expecting again. My special introduction is for our baby girl due in July. Her nickname is the grasshopper (thanks to Andrea!), and baby girl is now 19w6d gestation. We do not have a name for her yet. It is truly bittersweet, especially getting to this point in the pregnancy, because I lost my girls at 20w0d. So this is both an extremely happy time and a scared time for us. Really, this entire pregnancy has been that way so far, scared, but hopeful, which is why we waited this long to introduce her. Every day is a blessing, and we continue to try to enjoy her while we have her, and hope we hold her in our arms happy and healthy in July. I know her big sisters are smiling down on us. This may be one of the only times or few times I mention the grasshopper here, as this site is first and foremost my triplet angels’ site. I created another blog that I made private for a while to help get my thoughts out and to document this pregnancy, and the journey to get here. You are now welcome to follow Persevering To Become An Earthly Mommy if you wish.

Love to you all xxxxoooo


  1. Thinking of you this week as you become the most pregnant you've ever been. :) Funny, I met this milestone this week, too. All of the butterfly mementos are so beautiful. I'm the same way with buying things here and there. I'm worried I'll be on hoarders someday. But, I love being surrounded by things that remind me of Ella. xxoo

  2. This is truly an amazing community that we belong to! I love all of the butterflies and especially the turtle!

    And what wonderful news to wake up to this morning. I am so happy for you!!!!


  3. What beautiful gifts you have received for the girls.

    I am so excited to read that you are expecting again, and another little girl what a wonderful blog to read this morning. I am over the moon happy for you!!!


  4. Congrats on your grasshopper! Thinking of you as you cross this milestone! ((hugs))

  5. Nan, Congrats!!! I am so so happy for you! I will be praying for you and grasshopper along the rest of your journery! *HUGS*

  6. Yea Nannie! So happy for you and Mike. Your momentos for the girls are perfect, just like they are! You are such a good mommy and I'm so proud of the grace you exhibit as you move forward and the honesty you share! Thank you for your love and support of me throughout some of the worst days I've had! You are a blessing from God for so many of us and for Megan, Lynne, and Shelby.

  7. Congrats - and I love the grasshopper nickname!

  8. Nan Bear,

    Much love and many prayers as you move forward. My prayers are with you in the coming days, as I know its a struggle, but one that you will make it through :)

    Megan, Shelby and Lynne are so proud they have a little sister :) Little lady grasshopper is surrounded by such love and protected by 3 beautiful guardian angels...all will be well.

    I love your new "finds"! How cute is that frog???

    Remembering 3 Beautiful Butterflies and sending you love. Mwah!


  9. Sweet Nan,

    What wonderful news! My heart is happy for your family and I know your beautiful butterflies are smiling down on you with love. Praying for a wonderful remainder of this pregnancy and that our God allow you to enjoy it by filling you with His peace.

    I love the cross. It is gorgeous.

    Lots and lots of love,
    Katy xxx

  10. Hi Nan,

    What wonderful and precious gifts for your girls, just gorgeous.

    Congrats on your fantastic news. So happy for you all..... thinking of you as you move forward on this journey.


  11. Beautiful thoughtful gifts. I am so excited for you. Congratulations and God Bless.

  12. Whoooo hooooo! So happy for you and the Grasshopper! I love all the remembrances- and don't you worry about that other butterfly- perhaps it's one of our angels over to play for a bit! I know how scary pregnancy is after a loss- but it does happen! More often than not and it will happen again! I for one will be praying for you and grasshopper! Hold on to that hope!
    Hugs friend!

  13. Nan,
    What nice gifts:0)
    I know how you feel about approaching 20wks but just know that i am with you, thinking of you and the grasshopper and praying for you. Sending you lots of love and warm fuzzy thoughts.

  14. I just found your blog and wanted to say hi. I'm in PA too (Montgomery County) and have three little saints in heaven too. Keeping your family in prayer.

  15. Hi Nan, I love the plant stand that you purchased. Congratulations on your little grasshopper! I'm so happy for you and wish you another 20 weeks of healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby girl.