I have been trying to find this little piece of paper for almost 11 months now. I asked hubby, "Where do you think it is, in your car?". He replies, "No I haven't seen it. Are you sure we have something like that?". So I was thinking I was crazy, that maybe in the craziness of delivery that maybe I imagined it happened. And then the other day, hubby placed a little piece of paper in front of me. My eyes lit up and tears welled. Handwritten was:
Shelby Lee - 10 oz
Megan Aimee - 8 oz
Lynne Barbara - 9 oz
Their weights. My precious girls. All of this time, I never remembered their weights and it's been torturing me. This also gave me clue to how long they were, exactly the same number as their weights 10", 8" and 9", Mike remembered clearly my SIL saying that.
Why do I need this info? 1) I just do. and 2) I am fortunate to have birth certificates that need filling out still, and I can finally include this info which I will do on their 1st birthday.
So there you have it. How some lady can be so neurotic about a piece of paper with 10 8 9 on it. I will forever have 10 8 9 in my head, forever. If that doesn't explain the mind of a bereaved Mother, I do not know what will! Tell you what though, I never knew I could love so hard and be this passionate about anything.
Feel free to share any neurotic thoughts here as they are most welcome!
Love, Nan xo
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