Thursday, February 4, 2010

A Little Piece of Paper

I have been trying to find this little piece of paper for almost 11 months now. I asked hubby, "Where do you think it is, in your car?". He replies, "No I haven't seen it. Are you sure we have something like that?". So I was thinking I was crazy, that maybe in the craziness of delivery that maybe I imagined it happened. And then the other day, hubby placed a little piece of paper in front of me. My eyes lit up and tears welled. Handwritten was:

Shelby Lee - 10 oz
Megan Aimee - 8 oz
Lynne Barbara - 9 oz

Their weights. My precious girls. All of this time, I never remembered their weights and it's been torturing me. This also gave me clue to how long they were, exactly the same number as their weights 10", 8" and 9", Mike remembered clearly my SIL saying that.

Why do I need this info? 1) I just do. and 2) I am fortunate to have birth certificates that need filling out still, and I can finally include this info which I will do on their 1st birthday.

So there you have it. How some lady can be so neurotic about a piece of paper with 10 8 9 on it. I will forever have 10 8 9 in my head, forever. If that doesn't explain the mind of a bereaved Mother, I do not know what will! Tell you what though, I never knew I could love so hard and be this passionate about anything.

Feel free to share any neurotic thoughts here as they are most welcome!

Love, Nan xo

9 comments:

  1. I know what you mean. For the longest time I did NOT know how much our boys weighed or even what time they were born. Now their information is permanently etched in my heart.

    *hugs*

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  2. i open our babies' box fairly often to look at the birth sheets the nurses gave us. birth certificates though...we weren't even given that option...can we still file them?

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  3. I so glad that it was found. ((HUGS))

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  4. I have been thinking about you !! I havn't talked (emailed) you in a while. Your girls were tiny. I thought my triplets were small (11 & 14oz & both 10 inches)but so perfecly formed like a baby doll !! We are trying again. I started a new blog about it. Your in my prayers .......... by the way .... my crazy thing was what time were they born ... I couldn't remember for the life of me... but i know now. :)

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  5. You know what, I am the same way! I can totally understand wanting to find that piece of paper. When you know you won't ever have more memories, the ones you do have become priceless and dear to our hearts. I am so glad you found that piece of paper and that you will get to file for a birth certificate for your girls. I treasure Jenna's birth and death certificates because it validates her existence. I know it's just a piece of paper, but to me they are more than that.

    Anyway, sorry for rambling... but just want to let you know I get it.
    xx

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  6. It may be a litte piece of paper but the information on it is priceless. I'm glad hubby found it. Hugs to you. Thinking of you and sending lots of love your way.

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  7. You aren't being neurotic, you are trying to hold on to one of the only things you have of your daughters. In this world of ours we don't have a lifetime of pictures, a lifetime of memories. We have very few things, and while what we do have probably doesn't mean much to others, its the world to us. I'm so glad your hubby found the paper, so special. *hugs*

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  8. Every little memento is so important. I have random things in her box too, like the allergy bracelet I had to wear in the hospital. What are you planning to do on their birthdays? You and are both approaching that milestone very soon. :(

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  9. I think I would've been desperate to find that paper! I'm so glad that it was found!

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