Saturday, May 9, 2009

In honor of all Moms

To all Mom's, heavenly and earthly or both, Happy Mother's Day.

I went with my Mom to the cemetary today to visit my Grandmom, and the minute we drove in, I started bawling. All I could think about is that I hope my Grandmom is with my precious babies and watching over them. It's so hard to not think of what could have been. I know I am a Mom, but it makes it really hard to accept it when your children are in Heaven. If I could trade places with them, I would, in a heartbeat. This is, by far, the most difficult thing I have ever had to endure in my 34 years. I am getting by, but I can't help but think that no matter how many things we do to honor the girls, it will never bring them back. I wish there was a way. So to try and bring some peace and comfort to myself, I can only hope that our babies are being cared for by our lost loved ones above. I pray. I miss my baby girls sooo much.

Our turtle with the lighted butterfly is now in the garden. He looks adorable. I took a picture but the light is too low, with the it is but I don't know if you can see it, you can click on the pictures and it should show them full size:

My bracelet is being made with lots of love fom my special new friend in Australia, she is waiting until Mother's Day (our time, EST) to put the footprints in their frames. How sweet is that?! Another sobbing mess I am! I will post the pictures of the bracelet when I get it. Oh, I am going to be a blubbering mess tomorrow. My tears are my reminders of being a Mom. *sigh*

Love to all, Nan xo


  1. Thanks Joshua, so sorry for your loss and please tell Lauren I said Happy Mother's Day. We will all make it through. I hope you are both well. Nan